Rather Cry Alone

By Lucid Genjutsu

Pain.

Pain is an emotion,
an emotion I try my best to hide.
My tears don’t fall
unless I’m left alone to cry.

Inside my heart and mind,
isolation kicks my ass from time to time.
Rejecting the world
I often leave behind.

Neglecting my surroundings
I found my sorrow is a parasite,
draining the joy
from those I care.

So nowadays I wear a mask
to enjoy the memories we may share.

The truth is
the truth hurts
it’s simple and plain,
but I’d be damned
if I let my depression drown
my life down the drain.

Crazy, Insane, or Deranged
I might be all of the above.
I hide how I truly feel
to protect the people I love.

Prone to falling
in and out of my zone
in hopes that
my heart may find a home.

I’d rather cry alone than let my feelings be known.